Wednesday, 2 October 2013

God is still providing

Although I have disappeared from the blog for way too long (been a rough time) I have been trying to discern if I should continue blogging and if so is there a particular subject matter to concentrate on. I do not have an answer to either. 

Lately I have had the feeling to continue blogging and to share parts of my life with you. I do not feel this should be a blog entirely about my day to day events. I feel it will be a mixture of things I read or watch and also about some of the struggles and victories living with depression.

I feel God is reminding me He will heal me yet in His own perfect timing. And I need to find a way of living life in the meantime. I need to do more than I have been. I have been resting, aka sleeping away free days too much. I want to say there is a whole world out there waiting for me to discover. Perhaps I need to be more realistic and say there's a whole city to discover, although next month will be getting to discover part of down under - big, happy, excited grin on my face.

I love the fact that the past year may have been my greatest challenge yet there have always been moments of relief, light in the darkness, to pull me through. 

And I am so thankful for all of you in my life for supporting me and being a friend. I cannot list you as there would be many names. 

Laughter, apparently, is the best medicine (must admit I do like to laugh, have you noticed?). What makes you laugh out loud?

Monday, 7 January 2013

He can heal
I have 1.5 weeks before I go back to work and I'm trying to get ready for it. The only problem is as soon as I start to think about going back I feel worse. I'm not sure at the moment that is the best thing to do. But is being off doing me any good? Not really.

I was outside a minute ago in despair and then realised I don't have to do this alone. So I cried out to God. What amazing peace I have. I was reminded of something a friend wrote to me - "work does not define who I am". So true. Whatever work throws at me next week shouldn't make me feel worse.

I am so thankful for family and friends at the moment. Keep praying guys. I need to get back in community with you.

Again, at the start of a new year I know of a major change that will happen and am so hopeful of another. So here's to improvement on the job front and I know I will be healed from this awful depression - hoping it will be this year.

I have to get work sorted out so I can book a great holiday towards the end of the year. So looking forward to being with the Mowbs again. Only wish it could be right now! At least half of the Mowbs-clan is happy at the mo.

So I have a plan of action. Just need to get on with it. So here's to tidying the house and to starting applying again. Somethings gotta change, and that is me. Just need to make that first step

What is stopping you from moving on?
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Tuesday, 1 January 2013

Elephant in the room
What a great start to the New Year. Such a fun lunch with some of the ladies from Redeemer. Thank you for such a fun time. We all contributed to the meal. Lots of fun, food and so much laughter.
Who would have thought a game of True or False would cause so many tears of laughter. There were some classic moments which I had to write down. I know some of the fun was being part of it, in the moment. So perhaps this is just a record for us to remember the moments. There are a couple of scrbook pages that need to be made.
There turned out to be a theme for the game. We learnt a lot of things about elephants.